Thursday -stuck

Well, It's Thursday and the scale STILL say's 219lbs and today it even fluctuated between 219 and 219.5lbs.

This is when I'm annoyed. Yesterday I counted my calories to make sure I didn't over eat. I did a 5km walk at lunch and then did 9 holes of golf in the evening. Still nothing budged on the scale.

I know "intellectually" I shouldn't use the scale as my only measurement. Emotionally though, this is where I feel my success, where I find my goals being achieved in a tangable, measurable fashion.

I feel "anxious" about getting closer to below 200. Feeling "stuck" at 219 is depressing.

I'm hanging in there - as going "up" would be worse then being stuck here.

Usually Wednesday/Thursday are the days the weight on the scale changes.

I can't cut back on more calories - I'll end up fainting of low blood sugar and starving myself.
Walking is the exersice that fits into my schedule and gives me a life
There is no room for exersice equipment in our home.

I have to say, the reality, of no room for exersice equipment in our home is the biggest "sadness" that I'm feeling. I know I would be more successful, especially at times when I feel stuck, if I could go into the basement and work out for even 30 minutes on a high impact machine. I then would feel I could do something "right now" to boost my health and still get to work on time, make my appointments, see friends and family and spend time with Chris.

The idea of going to the gym still overwhelms my day. I dread the gym. I keep thinking, I SHOULD go to the gym, even if it eats up 2-3 hours of my evening. The walking 5-10km a day is not working this week. God I wish I had a tredmill or Eclyptic machine at home. I KNOW 100% that I could fit that in within 60 minutes. No driving time, I could shower upstairs in my own shower. I'd still have time to do everything else I wish to do. I look around the basement as I type this, and think "This sucks" - I'm not feeling very positive about my living space today!

Namaste
B.