Thursday

Today the scales said 207.5 to 208lbs (it fluctuated back and forth - mostly sitting at 207.5lbs)

It's odd how yesterday the scale was 209 today I stepped on and saw 207.5lbs - I'm not complaining - just fascinated how my weight shows change quickly, then stables off for a while.

As I watch the scale, I get frustrated with myself, then when I review how much weight I've lost since May 3rd, I calm down. My impatience increases as I get closer to my goal. My first goal being 178lbs. My second goal 170lbs - and when I review my BMI data - I'm going to see if I get to 155lbs and have a healthy BMI (Body Mass Index) - but I am happy with me in the 170's. That's what is important - being happy and feeling good in my body. Still, I can't ignore the health data on what extra weight does to the body. It's like a smoker saying that they won't get lung cancer when they cut back, but don't quit - they are "hoping" that they don't get lung cancer, but they know deep down inside that their habits could lead them down that road. I'm the same way. I'm hoping I don't end up with heart disease, diabetes, severe arthritis etc.. With my weight - but the statistics on the Human Body - as an organism within the universe suggests that if I'm at a higher BMI then 155lbs, then I'm at a higher risk. Extra weight is one of the most preventable diseases there is! While I am still healthy in heart etc.. I want to get the rest of my body healthy so I can live a long life! Still I won't get caught up with the 155lb goal the same way I'm caught up with the 178lb goal. Probably because I have not seen 155lbs in my adult life. The last time I weighed 155lbs I was 13-14 years old and in grade 8. By grade 9 age 15 I was 160, by grade 13 age 19 I was 200lbs. I remember in grade 5 (age 10-11) being 130lbs and feeling so fat - dieting and thinking 130lbs was the end of the world. My doctor at the time said if I just kept my weight stable to adult hood, I'd grow into the 130lbs - I didn't believe him. My peers were very cruel and teased me - so I dieted - the worst thing I could have done to my body and it's metabolism - diet as a child! Anyhow, in the end I don't remember living in a body with a Healthy BMI at my height. The last time I was "normal" in weight was grade 3. Then I got "chunky".

Yesterday my golf game got rained out - actually the entire day was rainy. I ended up working late catching up on paperwork. When I went to leave my car battery had died. Good thing I pay for CAA! They came, gave me a boost and off I was again.

Today looks like a beautiful day out there. Sunny, high of 28C. I'll have a good walk today at lunch!

Namaste
B.