TGIF

Hello All

Today the scales said 197.5lbs

I didn't get to my blog this morning as Fridays are early mornings for me (I work 7:30am to 3:30pm on Fridays)

The last two days people have been coming up to me at work asking "have you lost weight" - I seemed to have hit the threshold where people are noticing - they say it's starting to show in my face - which means I'm closer to looking "like me" again (smile - not that I can't look "like me" - but I am happier when my face is smaller).

I did my 5km walk at lunch today

I was thinking loosing weight is the hardest "easiest" thing I've ever done. I'm a grown woman - I understand calories in equal calories out. I know sugar, fried foods, white flour etc.. add up quicker than fruit, veggies, chicken and low fat cheese. Still, the emotional internal battle is where I struggle. The use of food to drug myself - to feel better and the pure joy of eating pastries, chocolate, fried whatever, hamburgers with cheese oozing out the sides, gravy's and BBQ sauces with 5 million calories smothering meat, it's all so decantly good in the mouth.... but that's how I got here in the first place - by choosing pleasure over nutrician. The battle still rages inside me - the cravings - the "I wants" or "I needs" (especially when there is cake or dessert involved). A simple "no" feels good in the long run, but in the short run my brain attempts to make up every excuse possible to say "yes".

Namaste
B.