Monday October 30th

Well It's Monday October 30th - One month since the wedding day (Sept 30th)

My, October has flown by.

I've been struggling with Carbs still. Eating Bread products like they are going out of style. I did do a few minutes on the Elliptical machine on Sunday.

This weekend we had a quiet weekend. We shopped, had the family over for Hockey and Dinner on Saturday Night. Yesterday we played Never Winter Nights - On Wednesday the next version of the game is released - so I know what we are doing next weekend!

Hope everybody had a great weekend

Namaste
B.

long week

It has been a long week this week.

I have not done well with food

On Tuesday I spent 6 hours straight in an Arbitration hearing with work- and ate to much while sitting around (there is a lot of sitting around at an Arbitration hearing). I also ate more because that evening I was going to a funeral visitation in Georgetown. My cousin's husband's sister passed away. It was very sudden. At thanksging she was hosting dinner for her family, feeling under the weather. Went to the doctor the that week and found out she was full of cancer and had maybe days to live. She lived 9 days. So I ate my way through the nervous energy of going to a visitation that day. I kept feeling that deep pit in the bottom of my heart - I can't imagine seeing my sister there, or Chris's brothers and the heart ache that goes through a person. Even contemplating it mad me feel physically ill.

Then on Wednesday (yesterday) I was at a Human Resources Convention for my local area. The food of course was amazing, and I didn't use any will power what so ever as I ate my way through yesterday.

My "control" mechanism seems to be failing these days - and I've gone back to old patterns of using food as a comfort and emotional release. This is a pattern that's sabotaged me in the past. And in the middle of the eating, I intellectually know what I'm doing to myself - but for some reason my hand still goes to mouth and I eat.

Namaste
B.

Monday Monday

Good morning

Today the scales said 196.5 lbs

I'm going to try not concentrating on the scales so much, but instead concentrate on eating healthy!

Today I had oatmeal and banna for breakfast. I've got packed 2 yogurts, cottage cheese and 3 fruits for lunch.

This weekend Chris and I went up to Parry Sound to visit Chris's Mom and Step Dad who are off to Arizona for the winter beginning Wednesday. We had a great Visit. Chris, Ken and I went for a 2 hour walk on Saturday while waiting for everybody else to arrive. Dianne and I sat up to 2am talking, while the boys were out by the fire outside drinking and talking. We left yesterday after lunch and got back home around 1pm. We then decided to look at open houses in the area (One neighbourhood had an open house blitz) - we are not really looking to move just yet (probably another 2 years or so) but we thought it would be fun to start going out and seeing what is on the market, having the conversations of what we both like and don't like in a house. We both agreed that none of the houses we saw on Sunday were anything we would like.

Anyhow that was our weekend.

Hope everybody else had a great weekend

Off to work now!

Namaste

B.

back to work

Hello All

I've been having difficulty with Blogger working the last few days

I went back to work on Wednesday and the scale is around 197lbs (gained weight over the honeymoon)

I've had a difficult time taking myself off of white flour, sugar and starch. I'm craving it at hightened levels - It's like falling off the wagon with cigarrette's and smoking again - the cravings are strong. I have not done well this week in stopping them - I've even gained 0.5 lbs since Monday. Last week I gained 1 lbs (I came back from the resort at 195.5). I'm having difficulties finding my off button.

I do have the Elliptical machine set up. I got on it on Tuesday evening. I need to prioritize that more for every evening.

I hope everybody enjoys their Friday - This weekend we are visiting Parry Sound.

Namaste

B.

Married

Married

Well I made it - got married on September 30th

Just got back from one week at a resort where I had more food then one could imagine; we also hiked a lot in Algonquin - I've not stepped on the scale yet. I'll let you know how I did when I get brave - I am guessing I gained 8 pounds (I'm hoping for less)

With the money we got as gifts one of the "me" presents will be exersize equipment.

Thank you to everybody who has supported me so far!

Now I have the opportunity to continue forward - not letting the wedding be an excuse to eat anything I want for weeks on end. Time to continue to take care of me for me!

Namaste

B