Being Me Now

"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be". Douglas Adams

Monday, July 31, 2006

Great Weekend

Hello Everybody

Blogger.com's picture loading is not working again today.

The scales still say 201.5lbs - so nothing changed from last week.

I ate way too much this weekend - there was food everywhere and a lot of it. I did resist the sugar, but the volume was too much.

I have to say it was a great weekend. On Saturday at Lunch we went to see my Aunt Jean. Got to spend some one on one time with her which was great. Then Saturday night we went to Chris's Uncle Rob & Aunt Penny's house for dinner and stayed to 2:00 a.m. I was the designated driver :)

Sunday was wedding shower #2 and it was a blast up in Peterborough. Got to see many people I had not seen in a very long time. We enjoyed ourselves in Vicki & Colin's backyard under the Sun. Chris's family got to meet all of my family - it was great.

Today I'm exhausted though! I'm off to work now. Hope I can stay awake today!

Namaste
B.

Friday, July 28, 2006

TGIF



It's Friday!

Today the scales said 201.5lbs.


Yesterday I went for my hour and 15 minute walk at lunch, then Chris and I did our 5km walk after dinner before I headed off to my massage appointment - I probably walked about 10km yesterday.

Today is a rainy day. Currently it is raining out (6:08am) and they have a 60% chance of showers throughout the day. I may or may not get my walk in depending on the weather.

This weekend is a busy weekend. We are going to head out and see my Aunt Jean on Saturday, then on Sunday go to the 2nd "Jack & Jill" at my sisters. Somewhere in there I need to clean the house!

Namaste

B.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Thursday July 27th


Hello Everybody

The scales said 201.5lbs this morning

Yesterday was a HOT day. There was a heat advisory, so I didn't go for my walk at lunch. Then golf was cancelled due to rain and the possibility of Thunderstorms.

Next week I'm off work from Aug 2nd to Aug 7th, so I won't be golfing next Wednesday with work (maybe with Chris!)

I've been spending most of my evenings reading. We cut our cable package down to the basic cable, gets us away from the television set. I've been enjoying the change - It was a good move.

I've talked to Mom about limiting the Television at the cottage. She agreed, that it is on too much these days. In the last couple of years it has been on way too much. We use to only turn it on for maybe one or two movies over the entire summer after it rained for at least 2 days and it was on for the hockey play offs in June. Television disturbs the peace, and the cottage is small enough that when it is on, you can't get away from it. I end up going to my bedroom to get away from the TV when they turn it on. I feel like I've been "sent to my room" by the television (which is an odd feeling at age 38). It just grinds on my nerves and the last thing I went up to the cottage to do was to be bombarded by movies etc.. When Chris and I have kids I don't want them watching TV at the cottage. I think we use TV too much to entertain ourselves as it is.

I hope you all have a great Thursday!

Namaste
B.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Chart

Weigh in 202 lbs - Wed July 26th


Hello

Today the scales said 202lbs. I'm only 3 lbs away from seeing a "1" at the beginning of my weight. Only 24lbs away from my goal. I've lost 32lbs so far since May 3rd.

Yesterday I went for my 1 hour and 15 minute walk at lunch. The rain held off until the evening. Today I am suppose to go golfing tonight - we will see - Thunderstorms are called for, and if they are around tonight I'll opt out (health & safety!)

This weeks has gone slowly. It feels like it should be Friday by now (but it's not).

I hope everybody else is having a great week

Betsy

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Walking

Good morning. Blogger.com seems to be having some technical difficulties with uploading pictures this morning!

Today I was 202.5 and 203lbs (the scale flipped back and forth) - probably I'm 202.75lbs LOL

Yesterday I went for an hour and 15 minute walk at lunch and Chris and I went for an hour and 10 minute walk after dinner - I probably walked about 10km yesterday.

Walking seems to be the best exersize choice for me. It fits into my schedule. I can do it with others. I can fit it into lunch. I don't have to change clothes or book a big chunk of time. I still a hoping to get a piece of equipment at home someday. I worry about the winter when the ice comes (my knees don't really do ice). Then I will need the support of something at home to exersize on.

I hope everybody has a great Tuesday. It may rain today, so I'm not sure if I'll get my walk in - or if I'll end up at the mall walking around the mall a couple of times.

Namaste
B.

Monday, July 24, 2006

Monday


I saw 204lbs this morning on the scales. This weekend has been an odd weekend for weight. On Saturday morning I saw 202.5lbs - then on Sunday morning it was 203lbs then this morning it was 204lbs - I think it's water retention, though I could have had too much food at the wedding shower on Saturday.

I did have a good weekend. Friday I worked from home and got a lot done on one project I'm working on - still have more to do, but I got the foundation laid.

Then Saturday we went to Toronto for the Wedding Shower at my cousin Jo-Anne's. It was great seeing everybody. I got to reconnect with a couple of people I have not seen in a while. On Sunday Chris and I cleaned out the garage (exciting!) then went down to a park to read and for a walk.

Today I'm feeling a bit under the weather still. I've been fighting off a cold since last Thursday. This morning I feel yucky. We will see how the day unfolds! I'm going to take some extra vitamin C this morning!

I hope everybody has a great Monday

Namaste
B.

Friday, July 21, 2006

Friday



Hello All

Today the scale said 204lbs

Yesterday I was in Whitby for a meeting. I ended up at an Italian Restaurant for lunch. It had a limited menu - and I ended up with a big meal - veal sandwich - bread - too much food. I have to admit it tasted good! I made the decision I could not eat dinner that night as the calorie content in the veal sandwich alone would have been a full day's worth of meals let alone add a salad and side dish. I knew it was too much, but I ate it all anyway. When I got home, I avoided the kitchen so I was not tempted to eat dinner.

Tomorrow I am in Toronto at a shower. I know there will be a lot of tempting food that I will need to resist.

Namaste

B.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Lost 30lbs exactly since May 3rd


Hello everybody

Today the scale said 204.5lbs - exactly 30lbs lost from May 3rd.

Unfortunately today I've woken up with a nasty cold. My sinus hurts - my throat hurts - my head throbs - I've got to go to a meeting about an hour away from work today - I'm not sure if I'll last longer then that - My ears even ache!

Yesterday I walked my 5km walk at lunch then played 9 holes of golf - 2nd time out playing golf and I was improving as the game went along. I need to get out more often for golf - maybe Chris and I can get out this Sunday :)

I hope everybody is enjoying their Thursday

Namaste
B.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Chart

Wednesday Weigh in



Hello

This morning the scales said 205lbs. Inching ever so closely to below 200!

Yesterday I went for my 5km walk at Lunch.

Today I plan to do the 5km walk at lunch, then tonight go golfing with the work group for 9 holes. Lots of opportunity for exersize today.

I'm now down 29.5lbs from when I first weighed myself on May 3rd.

I hope everybody has a great Wednesday

Namaste

B.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Salad



Today the scales read 205.5lbs

Last night I met my friend Jane for dinner after work, and as I ordered my chicken salad, I realized I now like salad - my taste buds are changing - and I like salad.

I tend to only order salad when I go to a restaurant - the "Chicken salad" with your lowest calorie dressing on the side - is the standard order. At first I resented the salads and I was not a fan - now I'm enjoying the taste - my taste buds have shifted by eliminating the white flour, sugar and starch and other foods are tasting good!

Namaste

B.

Monday, July 17, 2006

Monday



It's Monday morning - back to work -

This morning the scales said 206lbs. Getting closer.....

Today is a hot day with a humidex in the high 30's Celsius and a pollution advisory, so I may not make my walk (not because of the heat, but because of the pollution)

This evening I'm meeting a friend at Jack Astor's for dinner.

Yesterday Chris and I went for our 5km walk in the evening. We saw Pirates of the Caribbean 2.

Namaste

B.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Sunday



Well both Saturday and Sunday the scale said 206.5lbs - getting closer to loosing that "2" at the beginning of my weight - and that feels fantastic!

This Saturday we went for a boat cruise down in Toronto with Chris's work - then headed to Fion McCool's pub for dinner - afterwards we went back to Barrie and hooked up with his brothers downtown. I was the designated driver (the only sober one) - so I have lots of memories of the evening that I can remind them of (smile).

I'm feeling better and better about everything as I get closer to my weight goal. I am starting to see myself in the mirror again - It's like I'm coming out of a cocoon and bursting out into "me" as the weight melts away.

Today we are doing some shopping, then going to see the movie Pirates of the Caribbean 2. Fun Fun Fun - Nice and warm out there over 40C with the humidex - I love this weather! Makes me energized!

Namaste

B.

Friday, July 14, 2006

It's Friday



Happy Friday everybody.

Today the scales said 207.5lbs

It is 6am in the morning - need to leave soon as Friday's I work an earlier shift from 7:30 am to 3:30pm.

Yesterday I walked my 5km walk at lunch. We picked out the wedding flowers after work, then went out to dinner where I was good and had a salad with the "healthy choice" symbol on the menu.

We are getting there with wedding plans. We've finished the photography list for the photographer, we have the wedding bans, the wedding dress, DJ, Hall, invitations are out and we are slowly getting responses back, the flowers are now done! It's all coming together nicely.

Namaste

B.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Thursday


Today the scales said 207.5 to 208lbs (it fluctuated back and forth - mostly sitting at 207.5lbs)

It's odd how yesterday the scale was 209 today I stepped on and saw 207.5lbs - I'm not complaining - just fascinated how my weight shows change quickly, then stables off for a while.

As I watch the scale, I get frustrated with myself, then when I review how much weight I've lost since May 3rd, I calm down. My impatience increases as I get closer to my goal. My first goal being 178lbs. My second goal 170lbs - and when I review my BMI data - I'm going to see if I get to 155lbs and have a healthy BMI (Body Mass Index) - but I am happy with me in the 170's. That's what is important - being happy and feeling good in my body. Still, I can't ignore the health data on what extra weight does to the body. It's like a smoker saying that they won't get lung cancer when they cut back, but don't quit - they are "hoping" that they don't get lung cancer, but they know deep down inside that their habits could lead them down that road. I'm the same way. I'm hoping I don't end up with heart disease, diabetes, severe arthritis etc.. With my weight - but the statistics on the Human Body - as an organism within the universe suggests that if I'm at a higher BMI then 155lbs, then I'm at a higher risk. Extra weight is one of the most preventable diseases there is! While I am still healthy in heart etc.. I want to get the rest of my body healthy so I can live a long life! Still I won't get caught up with the 155lb goal the same way I'm caught up with the 178lb goal. Probably because I have not seen 155lbs in my adult life. The last time I weighed 155lbs I was 13-14 years old and in grade 8. By grade 9 age 15 I was 160, by grade 13 age 19 I was 200lbs. I remember in grade 5 (age 10-11) being 130lbs and feeling so fat - dieting and thinking 130lbs was the end of the world. My doctor at the time said if I just kept my weight stable to adult hood, I'd grow into the 130lbs - I didn't believe him. My peers were very cruel and teased me - so I dieted - the worst thing I could have done to my body and it's metabolism - diet as a child! Anyhow, in the end I don't remember living in a body with a Healthy BMI at my height. The last time I was "normal" in weight was grade 3. Then I got "chunky".

Yesterday my golf game got rained out - actually the entire day was rainy. I ended up working late catching up on paperwork. When I went to leave my car battery had died. Good thing I pay for CAA! They came, gave me a boost and off I was again.

Today looks like a beautiful day out there. Sunny, high of 28C. I'll have a good walk today at lunch!

Namaste
B.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Chart

Weigh in 209 lbs



Today I weighed in again at 209lbs. I have 11 weeks to the wedding - at 2lbs a week (22lbs) I will be 187lbs - about 9 pounds heavier then I was hoping to be.

That's okay - as long as it keeps going down.

I went shoping yesterday for pants - I was a bit disappointed that I have only gone down one size after 25lbs - I was hoping for 2 sizes.

Yesterday's article I pasted in talked about the health risks with different sizes.

At 209 lbs and 5 feet 7 inches my BMI is 33. Most of the charts I have seen have indicated that I would be at a health weight at 155lbs.

According to the recent study by JAMA normal (BMI 18.5 24.9), overweight (BMI 25.0 29.9), obesity 1 (BMI 30.0 34.9), obesity 2 (BMI 35.0 ¨C 39.9) and extreme obesity (BMI 40). Those in the "Obesity 1" Category have a 12% higher risk of death. (That is where I stand right now at 33). Those in the extremely obesity BMI 40+ have an 86% risk of death - shows you how fast the weight can increase your health risks.

Here is a BMI Chart:

Namaste

B.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

209lbs Tuesday


Today the scales said 209lbs. Getting closer to below the 200 mark! Lost 25lbs now.

I saw an article on Television the other day that talked about the risk factors of being overweight.

Here is an article I found on the story from TV's Global Network: www.globalnational.com

The more obese, the bigger the health risk

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

TORONTO -- While obesity is generally viewed as a singular health concern, a new study of over 90,000 women suggests that health risks increase substantially with increased weight, including high blood pressure, diabetes, high cholesterol -- even death.
The study was published Tuesday in the Journal of the American Medical Association (JAMA), and has an important suggestion for women looking into ways of confronting their obesity problems

"When a woman and her physician are choosing treatment options for obesity, they should carefully consider the degree of obesity, not just think of obesity as an overall entity," writes Dr. Kathleen McTigue, the study's lead author. "The degree of obesity will influence how likely it is that her health will be harmed by her current weight."

Researchers at the University of Pittsburgh, along with researchers from six other institutes, looked at data from 90,185 women from 40 centres in the United States and followed up for an average of seven years.

The researchers assigned the women into five weight categories according to their weight-to-height ratio (also known as body mass index or BMI), and focused on their rates of death and newly diagnosed conditions of heart disease.

The categories were normal (BMI 18.5 – 24.9), overweight (BMI 25.0 – 29.9), obesity 1 (BMI 30.0 – 34.9), obesity 2 (BMI 35.0 – 39.9) and extreme obesity (BMI = 40).

Researchers found that women in the third category, 'obesity 1,' had a 12 per cent higher risk of death after seven years, and that women in the fifth category, 'extreme obesity,' had an alarming 86 per cent higher risk of death than women in the 'normal' category.

The researchers concluded that death rates increased substantially with increasing weight category, ranging from 68.39 deaths per 10,000 person-years in women with normal BMIs to 116.85 deaths per 10,000 person-years in extremely obese women.

"These findings also underscore the importance of learning more about the best treatments for extremely obese women, as well as the need for aggressive diagnosis and treatment of diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol in the obese,” writes Dr. McTigue.McTigue also warns that current data suggests the problem of obesity is worsening among adults rather than improving, with obesity rates among U.S. adults skyrocketing to 30 per cent of adults 20 years of age or older (over 60 million in the U.S. alone) in just two decades. Among young people, the number categorized as overweight or obese has more than tripled over the past 25 years.
The study also found that the prevalence of extreme obesity varied with race and ethnicity from 1 percent among Asian and Pacific Islanders to 10 percent among black women.

"Calculating the weight-related risks of morbidity and mortality based on our findings in earlier population samples, which tended to reflect lower degrees of obesity, may underestimate the risks for diverse groups," according to the study.

"More accurately assessing weight-related health risk may both improve policy decisions about obesity and assist women in making informed decisions about their health."

Researchers also found weight-related risk for all-cause mortality, coronary heart disease mortality, and coronary heart disease incidence did not differ by race or ethnicity. Until now it has been unclear whether health risks increase or plateau as body weight increases through the levels of obesity.

© Global National 2006

Monday, July 10, 2006

Monday



This morning the scales said 209.5lbs.

It was a frustrating weekend again for me. On Saturday night I ended up binging on food. I just was not able to control myself. We had gone out to dinner to a smoke house were Chris and I shared a dinner for two. Later we came back to our house, and Chris warmed up some sausage rolls for the boys. I know I should not have even touched them, but I couldn't help myself, and once I had one, it turned into two, then three and so forth.

I did better on Sunday by just not eating much of anything at all!

I didn't get my walks in this weekend either. Friday at lunch I walked my 5km walk. I ended up with blisters on my feet, so I could not walk Friday night - needed to rest my feet. Saturday we cleaned the house, Sunday ended up being a lazy day. I kept telling myself that I should go to the gym on Sunday as a "penance" for eating the sausage rolls on Saturday night (I see the gym as a punishment - I know it's my own perception, but when I think of the gym, I cringe inside).

Anyhow that was my weekend. I did have fun on Saturday, up to the point of the sausage rolls, then I just felt guilty.

I've got to do some running around at lunch today (and it's going to rain today) so today is another day I won't get my walk in. Then tonight I'm meeting a friend for dinner. (more food choices).

Namaste.

B.

Friday, July 07, 2006

Stuck

Friday July 7th - I'm still 211lbs.

Everytime I get stuck, I get frustrated.

I went out to dinner last night - tried not to feel guilty for eating out. We had East Indian - a veggie dish, lentels & chicken dish. I had a small bit of Nan bread too (couldn't resist the Nan bread)

I walked about 5km at lunch (1 hour 10 min walk) and after dinner I figure we walked about 7km (1 hr 30 min walk).

I'm just so anxious to get back to "being me" NOW! that it is frustrating to be "stuck" at 211

Just 12lbs and I'll be 199lbs - then I start to be at the edge of looking like, and feeling like "me" in my own body.

The longer I'm stuck over 200, the more frustrated I become with my wordrobe too. I don't want to buy any clothes, however, I don't have any good pants that fit, and I'm down to 3 skirts for work. I have 2 skorts for the weekend - but they are becoming too big as well.

The next size wordrobe does not fit for 12lbs.

So I'm stuck in more ways then one. I'm probably going to have to buy pants for work as I need pants next week to conduct Health & Safety Inspections.

Oh well
Namaste
B

Thursday, July 06, 2006

July 6th 211lbs



It's Thursday July 6th. I am 211lbs this morning. Still not pleased that I am not 210lbs - first time I've been really off track with my 2lbs a week goal.

I am part of the Social Committee at work. Yesterday we had ice cream and strawberry day. I was at the Park Shop location dishing out ice cream and strawberries to employees. I also spent an hour in the morning hauling strawberries. I was good. I didn't even lick a spoon of ice cream. I had a bowl of strawberries with lunch. I didn't get my walk in though, as it was over lunch.

Today I will get my walk in.

Last nights dinner plans were cancelled by the other couple (not unexpectedly). I didn't have to worry about eating out, though I was looking forward to some sort of chicken salad.

Namaste

B.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Chart

Wednesday 211.5lbs


211.5 lbs - sigh - didn't loose 2lbs this week - only half a pound from last week. I guess I didn't do so well at the cottage this weekend after all. To stay on track, I needed to be 210lbs today. And I'm not.

My fears about the cottage seem correct right now. Too much food temptations. It was probably the cheese and dips on Saturday night that I didn't resist enough. Tonight I have dinner plans - not looking forward to restauarant foods.

I now need to be 208 by next week to be back on track.

Namaste
B.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Tuesday July 3rd



Welcome to Tuesday July 3rd. Today the scale said 211lbs.

Not the 2lb loss I was hoping for this week - but it's not Wednesday yet.

This weekend I was up at the cottage with friends and family. We had a big family meal with 23 guests on Saturday night. I did "okay" with food this weekend. I ate too much on Saturday though! I brought a cucumber and some yellow pepper to cut up so if there were dips, salsa I could taste but not get into the crackers. I didn't resist the Brie cheese though.

Overall, packing my lunch and breakfasts was a good idea. Made sure I had portion control in place for the entire weekend. Made it easier for me at dinner to make better choices as well.

I resisted chocolate birthday cake, warm melt in your mouth white buns with butter, I resisted home made chocolate chip cookies and those store bought Belgium cookies. I tasted the diet ice cream just to realize it has 120-140 calories per quarter cup - that's a lot of calories - and the fat content was not lower and it had potato starch in it!! Potato starch will metabolize onto one's hips very fast! Not a healthy choice in the end. After reading the ingredients I discovered diet ice cream means "no sugar" - it sure does not mean lower calories and better for your health - so I'll stay away from the ice cream. Another sneaky food was peanuts in the shell (unsalted). They are 330 calories per 1/3 cup. Another calorie buster if your not paying attention to portions. So after Sunday I avoided the peanuts too.

Overall I did well - I could have done better, I could have done much worse!! So I'll balance it off to "okay".

I kept telling myself that I don't have to celebrate with food. That it is the people I'm here for. When the chocolate cake came out for someone's birthday - I sang happy birthday then ran away - out of the cottage and to the great outdoors so I could not be tempted in any way.

I kept looking at the food this weekend and thinking about the summer. I would be easy to get caught up with "celebrations" - that's what happened to me last summer. Every weekend in the summer there is a reason to celebrate with food - whether it be guests at a cottage, a party, a shower, going out to dinner with friends, back yard BBQ's - each week there is some "special" event that is designed to derail a person who is eating well. My goal is to keep saying "no" - enjoy the company - but not the food! The gratification of the food now seems wonderful - but the future impact of eating is devastating when I look in the meal, step on the scale. In the end the instant gratification is not worth the health risk tomorrow. (at least that's what I keep preaching to myself to help me through the chocolate cake moments!)

Namaste

B.